procrastinating...

so i should totally be writing my south carolina essay
but i just can't it's hard even though i need to submit this app in like two hours

i'm having issues.

ever felt so strong for someone you're empty when they're not around?
that's how it is. but it's worse than that
this person has been in my life for years and out of nowhere things got crazy
and now the craziness is over but the feeling is still there
and i hate it.
i really shouldn't be left on my own for long periods of time--i think too much.
i'm smarter and stronger than to hope for a future
but i do because it's been promised to me.
so really i'm stupid.....


detroit is so gray and brown and dull
but i still think it's beautiful.
i hate the fuck outta michigan--but i love my city.

on another note, i really want a party. i need to get out and feel good again. cause if you thought i do feel good, you're so very wrong--i'm an oscar worthy actress.

alloveroliver

i know i'm like, almost grown
but i really wanna see madagascar 2.
cuz secretly i'm like a 5 year old.

but i figure i should be able to see madagascar if i want to.
cuz i'm grown.
i like penguins and i want a baby cheetah!!!!

i like things that are white and fluffy cause they remind me of how comfy life can be.

i freakin love graffiti cuz it's the bossiest artform on earth. i really wanna tag something!!!
and i wanna learn how to skateboard real bad so someone needs to teach me

wish i was in college already.

baloney bologna.

ummm brandon told me to get this so i did cuz i do whatever he tells me.
haha just kidding
except when he's holding a knife to my throat like he did that one time.
i told him i don't have anything to say but he said "bullshit." so i said something.

i just had a fried salami sandwich and it was delicious
no that doesn't make me ghetto.

jon and kate plus eight is like crazy.
i'd go insane if i had eight children. especially if they were all like, babies.
aughhhh so many pandillas, no?

i have nothing profound?
i'm writing a poem for my jazz literature class.
right now it says:

in a celestial desert
the tribal astronomy of classical africa
autumn desire and sunset pain.

barefoot daughters dance a bitter waltz
biting rain on a lemon fire.

so yeah.